final reflection-racheline

i realised the time of blogger is wrong! anw, i shall post my reflections up before 2359.

This had been an amazing trip which has somehow cultivated my interest in doing more to help the ones that really need our help. I really had fun playing and interacting with the children, although at times it was tiring and i was on the verge of losing my voice. i was being allocated to teach the primary ones, a bunch of innocent and adorable kids who didn't realise the fact that we were leaving despite telling them repeatedly. they're not exposed to the harshness of reality yet, or perhaps they're jus too young. but that's not the point. To those who are in the upper primary, how has our existence into their lives affected them?we came and we left. i wonder if it is more of a boon or a bane. will they be envious of what we have, or will it inspire them to work harder to attain what we have? it dawned upon me that most of them do not have the opportunity to choose, no matter how hard they work, they'll still be stucked in the poverty cycle. but who knows, there may be miracles ( for the minority). therefore, i feel that no matter how our presence has affected their lives ( be it positively or negatively), we should continue reaching out to them, to inform them of the presence of the world that is beyond their reach at this point of time, to try to help them to reach out to the impossible in one way or another because ----every action/effort counts.

It's sad to realise that not everyone appreciate our presence there, that sometimes it's hard to force people to like us or even accept us. We've stepped into their territories and they may not like it. They may find us a disruption into their lives. That's what i felt when i was in lu chong. We were complainning about the school after the first day ended, and after that night, i questioned my purpose of going to yunnan. i badly wanted to share with them all that i know of. i thought i shouldn't complain anymore no matter how bad the condition is. it's natural tendecy for them to reject strangers like us. we can only try our best to make them more receptive towards us, and really try our very best. we've got what they don't have, and we should be more generous to share with them all that we have.

The mountain climbing experience and walking on the fields gave me a deeper understanding of their daily lives. Most of us live in the luxury of being pampered by computer games, television and whatsoever, but they have to do climb the mountains to look for tree branches once a week.it's their way of life, and they told me that they're used to it... it saddened me.

This trip has allowed me to learn alot, to experience the activities that i will never get to experience if i've not gone on this trip, to know more of the world outside my comfort zone which i may not ever know of, but most importantly, it has instill a passion in me to serve with all i can. i believe that the less fortunate are born to be serve, and the privilleged are born to serve.

racheline