jiaxiang =)

one bigbig afternoon and jiaxiang is here to blog reflection -.- hoho. okay.. it wont be a very long reflection either.. not tt gd with words.. =)

hmm. first of all have to say about the weather.. err, well i survived. before the trip i am little worried tt my permanent injuries and body conditions would sorta hinder the stuffs tt im going to do in yunnan.. but haha it turned out, hoho not bad? =) im not tt gd at adapting after all, so i took first 4 days to adjust to the environment.. and i tot the toilet wasnt tt bad.. except the hospital one.. it's some sort of a housefly nest i guess. hoho im the KING HOUSEFLY dun forget >.< another thing, perhaps i will never get as enthu as the kids in yunnan.. in studies i mean. well i don personally feel xian mu-ing the kids there coz they are so passionate about studying, i jus feel.. hmm at least you all love study. jus feel glad for you all..

and.. i agreed to wad woonyee said during the last ocip meeting on final reflections.. yep, there's really nth we can do, much. they are living there. tts the reality.. in the first village, the da shen who cooked for the Yo! group.. we went her hse to have a chat with her. and i rmbed her saying, tt maybe she will nv be able to step out of here.. at tt moment, i admit my heart really sank. in normal situation i would have rebuke and say, "stop saying you cant, or you will never." perhaps it just sounds meaningful, but there's no meaning to it actually. in reality, there's always a limit to everything that we can do.. i cant do anything at tt moment, i've nothing to give. perhaps prayer, that she will be able to live to the fullest.. and all the best to her children. perhaps you wont want to step out of here, coz you nv know how complicated it is the world out there. or maybe i should say, i will nv know how complicated it is the world in there. you've taught me something - i have limits. but ive learnt something from that too.

"I'll go beyond that, and I will. Not because I must. But because I need to. I don't a have choice."

indeed, somehow i've grown stronger.. stronger than before i went to the trip..

and ofcoz, i bliv most of us will tok about the gathering firewoods experience. hmm. thanks to that little boy. you made me realise im weak after all. not being sacarstic here. weak, depends on how you interpret it.. haha you'll never know what my weak refers to.

"thanks.. and all the best to you in your secondary school.."

i think im going to end my reflections soon. i know it's pathetic. coz its so v short as compared to others. but somehow, those are the most important stuffs that ive learnt from this trip.

"Different mindset... different ways.. different.
All different. "

"Simple, is complicated.
there's nothing that is simple..
if you think it's simple,
you're more complicated that i thought."

"Yu qiang zhe qiang.. That's me. Show me, and I'll show you. "

"No matter.. No matter how hard you try and how hard you fall..
Just fight.
At the most you lost all your energy and collapse..
It's nothing more scary than giving up. "

"I will manage.. somehow..
-jiaxiang "

3.11pm, 13/1/2008